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J.k.RowlingPresidentFaust,membersoftheHarvardCorporationandtheBoardofOverseers,membersofthefaculty,proudparents,and,aboveall,graduates.ThefirstthingIwouldliketosayis‘thankyou.’NotonlyhasHarvardgivenmeanextraordinaryhonour,buttheweeksoffearandnauseaIhaveenduredatthethoughtofgivingthiscommencementaddresshavemademeloseweight.Awin-winsituation!NowallIhavetodoistakedeepbreaths,squintattheredbannersandconvincemyselfthatIamattheworld’slargestGryffindorreunion.Deliveringacommencementaddressisagreatresponsibility;orsoIthoughtuntilIcastmymindbacktomyowngraduation.ThecommencementspeakerthatdaywasthedistinguishedBritishphilosopherBaronessMaryWarnock.Reflectingonherspeechhashelpedmeenormouslyinwritingthisone,becauseitturnsoutthatIcan’trememberasinglewordshesaid.ThisliberatingdiscoveryenablesmetoproceedwithoutanyfearthatImightinadvertentlyinfluenceyoutoabandonpromisingcareersinbusiness,thelaworpoliticsforthegiddydelightsofbecomingagaywizard.Yousee?Ifallyourememberinyearstocomeisthe‘gaywizard’joke,I’vecomeoutaheadofBaronessMaryWarnock.Achievablegoals:thefirststeptoselfimprovement.Actually,IhavewrackedmymindandheartforwhatIoughttosaytoyoutoday.IhaveaskedmyselfwhatIwishIhadknownatmyowngraduation,andwhatimportantlessonsIhavelearnedinthe21yearsthathaveexpiredbetweenthatdayandthis.Ihavecomeupwithtwoanswers.Onthiswonderfuldaywhenwearegatheredtogethertocelebrateyouracademicsuccess,Ihavedecidedtotalktoyouaboutthebenefitsoffailure.Andasyoustandonthethresholdofwhatissometimescalled‘reallife’,Iwanttoextolthecrucialimportanceofimagination.Thesemayseemquixoticorparadoxicalchoices,butpleasebearwithme.Lookingbackatthe21-year-oldthatIwasatgraduation,isaslightlyuncomfortableexperienceforthe42-year-oldthatshehasbecome.Halfmylifetimeago,IwasstrikinganuneasybalancebetweentheambitionIhadformyself,andwhatthoseclosesttomeexpectedofme.IwasconvincedthattheonlythingIwantedtodo,ever,wastowritenovels.However,myparents,bothofwhomcamefromimpoverishedbackgroundsandneitherofwhomhadbeentocollege,tooktheviewthatmyoveractiveimaginationwasanamusingpersonalquirkthatwouldneverpayamortgage,orsecureapension.Iknowthattheironystrikeswiththeforceofacartoonanvil,now.SotheyhopedthatIwouldtakeavocationaldegree;IwantedtostudyEnglishLiterature.Acompromisewasreachedthatinretrospectsatisfiednobody,andIwentuptostudyModernLanguages.Hardlyhadmyparents’carroundedthecornerattheendoftheroadthanIditchedGermanandscuttledoffdowntheClassicscorridor.IcannotremembertellingmyparentsthatIwasstudyingClassics;theymightwellhavefoundoutforthefirsttimeongraduationday.Ofallthesubjectsonthisplanet,IthinktheywouldhavebeenhardputtonameonelessusefulthanGreekmythologywhenitcametosecuringthekeystoanexecutivebathroom.Iwouldliketomakeitclear,inparenthesis,thatIdonotblamemyparentsfortheirpointofview.Thereisanexpirydateonblamingyourparentsforsteeringyouinthewrongdirection;themomentyouareoldenoughtotakethewheel,responsibilitylieswithyou.Whatismore,IcannotcriticisemyparentsforhopingthatIwouldneverexperiencepoverty.Theyhadbeenpoorthemselves,andIhavesincebeenpoor,andIquiteagreewiththemthatitisnotanennoblingexperience.Povertyentailsfear,andstress,andsometimesdepression;itmeansathousandpettyhumiliationsandhardships.Climbingoutofpovertybyyourownefforts,thatisindeedsomethingonwhichtoprideyourself,butpovertyitselfisromanticisedonlybyfools.WhatIfearedmostformyselfatyouragewasnotpoverty,butfailure.Atyourage,inspiteofadistinctlackofmotivationatuniversity,whereIhadspentfartoolonginthecoffeebarwritingstories,andfartoolittletimeatlectures,Ihadaknackforpassingexaminations,andthat,foryears,hadbeenthemeasureofsuccessinmylifeandthatofmypeers.Iamnotdullenoughtosupposethatbecauseyouareyoung,giftedandwell-educated,youhaveneverknownhardshiporheartbreak.TalentandintelligenceneveryetinoculatedanyoneagainstthecapriceoftheFates,andIdonotforamomentsupposethateveryoneherehasenjoyedanexistenceofunruffledprivilegeandcontentment.However,thefactthatyouaregraduatingfromHarvardsuggeststhatyouarenotverywell-acquaintedwithfailure.Youmightbedrivenbyafearoffailurequiteasmuchasadesireforsuccess.Indeed,yourconceptionoffailuremightnotbetoofarfromtheaverageperson’sideaofsuccess,sohighhaveyoualreadyflown.Ultimately,weallhavetodecideforourselveswhatconstitutesfailure,buttheworldisquiteeagertogiveyouasetofcriteriaifyouletit.SoIthinkitfairtosaythatbyanyconventionalmeasure,ameresevenyearsaftermygraduationday,Ihadfailedonanepicscale.Anexceptionallyshort-livedmarriagehadimploded,andIwasjobless,aloneparent,andaspoorasitispossibletobeinmodernBritain,withoutbeinghomeless.Thefearsthatmyparentshadhadforme,andthatIhadhadformyself,hadbothcometopass,andbyeveryusualstandard,IwasthebiggestfailureIknew.Now,Iamnotgoingtostandhereandtellyouthatfailureisfun.Thatperiodofmylifewasadarkone,andIhadnoideathattherewasgoingtobewhatthepresshassincerepresentedasakindoffairytaleresolution.Ihadnoideathenhowfarthetunnelextended,andforalongtime,anylightattheendofitwasahoperatherthanareality.SowhydoItalkaboutthebenefitsoffailure?Simplybecausefailuremeantastrippingawayoftheines