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ThefirstdayImetBryceLoski,Iflipped.Honestly,onelookathimandIbecamealunatic.It'shiseyes.Somethinginhiseyes.They'reblue,andframedintheblacknessofhislashes,they'redazzling.Absolutelybreathtaking.遇见布莱斯·罗斯基的第一天，我就对他怦然心动。呃，好吧，实际上我对他完全是一见钟情。是因为他的眼睛。他的眼神里有某种东西。他有一双蓝色的眼睛，在黑色睫毛下一闪一闪的，让我忍不住屏住了呼吸。It'sbeenoversixyearsnow,andIlearnedlongagotohidemyfeelings,butoh,thosefirstdays.Thosefirstyears!IthoughtIwoulddieforwantingtobewithhim.六年了，我早就学会隐藏自己的感觉了。不过想想最初的日子，还是让人哭笑不得。最初的那几年，我想我大概是太执着地想跟他在一起了。Twodaysbeforethesecondgradeiswhenitstarted,althoughtheanticipationbeganweeksbefore—eversincemymotherhadtoldmethattherewasafamilywithaboymyagemovingintothenewhouse事情源于二年级开学的前两天，虽然几周之前就有了先兆——妈妈告诉我，有一家人要搬到对街的新房子，带着一个跟我同龄的男孩。rightacrossthecamphadended,andI'dbeensoboredbecausetherewasnobody,absolutelynobody,intheneighborhoodtoplaywith.Oh,therewerekids,buteveryoneofthemwasolder.Thatwasdandyformybrothers,butwhatitleftmewashomealone.足球夏令营已经结束了，街坊邻居没有一个人陪我玩，真是无聊死了。附近也有几个孩子，可他们全都是大孩子。对我哥哥们来说当然不错，可我却只能一个人孤零零地留在家里。Mymotherwasthere,butshehadbetterthingstodothankickasoccerballaround.Soshesaid,anyway.AtthetimeIdidn'tthinktherewasanythingbetterthankickingasoccerballaround,especiallynotthelikesoflaundryordishesorvacuuming,butmymotherdidn'tagree.Andthedangerofbeinghomealonewithherwasthatshe'drecruitmetohelpherwashordustorvacuum,andshewouldn'ttoleratethedribblingofasoccerballaroundthehouseasImovedfromchoretochore.妈妈也在家，不过她有的是比踢球更重要的事情要做。反正她是这么说的。对于当年的我来说，没有什么比踢球更好的了，尤其是跟洗衣服、刷盘子、拖地板比起来。但我妈妈不同意。单独跟妈妈待在家里就有这个危险，她会抓住我帮她洗衣服、刷盘子、拖地板。而且她绝对不能容忍我在做家务的间隙踢两脚球。Toplayitsafe,Iwaitedoutsideforweeks,justincasethenewneighborsmovedinearly.Literally,itwasweeks.Ientertainedmyselfbyplayingsoccerwithourdog,Champ.Mostlyhe'djustblockbecauseadogcan'texactlykickandscore,butonceinawhilehe'ddribblewithhisnose.Thescentofaballmustoverwhelmadog,though,becauseChampwouldeventuallytrytochompit,thenlosetheballtome.为保险起见，我在屋子外边晃荡了几个星期，生怕邻居来早了。真的，足有几个星期。为了自娱自乐，我开始跟我的狗“冠军”踢球。大多数时间它只能把球扑住，毕竟狗不是真的会“踢”球。但它有时会用鼻子去捅。不过，球的气味对狗来说一定是难以抵挡的诱惑，因为到最后“冠军”总会试图把它吃下去，然后输球给我。WhentheLoskis'movingvanfinallyarrived,everyoneinmyfamilywashappy.“LittleJulianna”wasfinallygoingtohaveaplaymate.当罗斯基家的卡车终于到来的那一天，我家里的每个人都欢欣鼓舞。“小朱莉安娜”终于有个玩伴了。Mymother,beingthetrulysensibleadultthatsheis,mademewaitmorethananhourbeforegoingovertomeethim.“Givethemachancetostretchtheirlegs,Julianna,”shesaid.“They'llwantsometimetoadjust.”Shewouldn'tevenletmewatchfromtheyard.“Iknowyou,thatballwillwindupintheiryardandyou'lljusthavetogoretrieveit.”作为一个极度敏感体贴的成年人，妈妈硬是让我在家里待了足足一个小时才出门见邻居。“给他们留点时间伸个懒腰，朱莉安娜，”她说，“他们需要一些时间休整。”她甚至不允许我从院子里往外看，“我很了解你，宝贝。没准儿最后你的球不知怎么就掉到人家的院子里，而你不得不过去捡回来。SoIwatchedfromthewindow,andeveryfewminutesI'dask,“Now”andshe'dsay,“Givethemalittlewhilelonger,wouldyou”所以，我只好趴在窗户旁边，隔几分钟就问：“现在能去了吗”她每次都回答：“再给他们一点儿时间，好吗”Thenthephonerang.AndtheminuteIwassureshewasgoodandpreoccupied,Ituggedonhersleeveandasked,“Now”这时电话响了。当我能肯定她正心情愉悦并且全神贯注在电话上时，我就拽着她的袖子问：“现在好了吗”Shenoddedandwhispered,“Okay,buttakeiteasy!I'llbeoverthereinaminute.”她点点头，轻声说：“好吧，但是放松一点儿！我马上就过去。”Iwastooexcitednottochargeacrossthestreet,butIdidtryveryhardtobecivilizedonceIgottothemovingvan.Istoodoutsidelookinginforarecord-breakinglengthoftime,whichwashardbecausetherehewas!Abouthalfwayback!Mynewsure-to-bebestfriend,BryceLoski.我太兴奋了，忍不住横穿了马路，但我努力在接近卡车的时候保持了礼貌。我站在车外朝里望去，破纪录地保持这个姿势挺长时间，但是这太有难度了，因为差不多等到一半的时候，我看到了他！我坚信即将成为我新的最佳死党的人——布莱斯·罗斯基！Brycewasn'treallydoingmuchofanything.Hewasmorehangingback,watchinghisfathermoveboxesontothelift-gate.IrememberfeelingsorryforMr.Loskibecausehelookedwornout,movingboxesallbyhimself.IalsorememberthatheandBrycewerewearingmatchingturquoisepoloshirts,whichIthoughtwasreallycute.Reallynice.其实布莱斯并没有做什么。他只是在那边晃荡着，看他爸爸把箱子搬到汽车尾板上。记得当时我真的很同情罗斯基先生，因为他看上去疲惫不堪，全靠他一个人在那里搬。我还记得他和布莱斯穿着相同款式的蓝绿色Polo衫（一种休闲服装），非常可爱。真是太好看了。WhenIcouldn'tstanditanylonger,Icalled,“Hi!”intothevan,whichmadeBrycejump,andthenquickasacricket,hestartedpushingaboxlikehe'dbeenworkingallalong.我不好意思再呆呆地站在那儿，于是朝车里喊道：“你们好！”布莱斯惊得跳了起来，然后像只蟋蟀似的迅速开始推起一只箱子，假装他一直在工作。IcouldtellfromthewayBrycewasactingsoguiltythathewassupposedtobemovingboxes,buthewassickofit.He'dprobablybeenmovingthingsfordays!Itwaseasytoseethatheneededarest.Heneededsomejuice!wasalsoeasytoseethatMr.Loskiwasn'tabouttolethimquit.Hewasgoingtokeeponmovingboxesarounduntilhecollapsed,andbythenBrycemightbedead.Deadbeforehe'dhadthechancetomovein!布莱斯的内疚感让我猜到，他本来应该乖乖地帮忙搬箱子，但他却烦透了这活儿。没准儿他已经干了好几天了！很明显，他需要休息。他需要喝点什么，比如果汁！同样很明显，罗斯基先生不可能放他走。他可能准备干到自己累倒为止，那时候布莱斯估计已经累死了——他大概都没机会走进新家！Thetragedyofitcatapultedmeintothemovingvan.Ihadtohelp!Ihadtosavehim!眼前的这一幕惨剧推动我走进了卡车。我必须去帮忙！我必须救他！WhenIgottohissidetohelphimshoveaboxforward,thepoorboywassoexhaustedthathejustmovedasideandletmetakeover.Mr.Loskididn'twantmetohelp,butatleastIsavedBryce.I'dbeeninthemovingvanallofthreeminuteswhenhisdadsenthimofftohelphismotherunpackthingsinsidethehouse.我走到他身边，准备帮他一起推箱子，这个可怜的孩子实在太累了，他只是让出位置，把活儿交给了我。罗斯基先生不想让我帮忙，但我至少救出了布莱斯。我在卡车里最多只待了三分钟，他就被他爸爸发配去屋子里帮妈妈整理行李。IchasedBryceupthewalkway,andthat'swheneverythingchanged.Yousee,Icaughtuptohimandgrabbedhisarm,tryingtostophimsomaybewecouldplayalittlebef